As I have been processing Sophie’s diagnosis of CAS (Childhood Apraxia of Speech), God brought to mind this Scripture: “Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus” (1 Thess 5:18). In all circumstances — not the ones that we like, the ones that are comfortable, the “good” circumstances — all of them. Why? Because this is God’s will for you. Otherwise, it wouldn’t be happening.
And so I pray:
Lord, Thank you for apraxia of speech. Thank you for choosing this for us. I admit, my heart does not feel particularly thankful, but I choose it out of obedience to Your Word. I know you are a good God. You do all things well. As you crafted each part of Sophie in your powerful hands, you allowed this to be part of her makeup. So we receive it from you, with thanksgiving, knowing that whatever you design, whatever you allow, you will use to glorify yourself. You are an all-powerful God of miraculous deeds, and I trust that we will see your glory in this road we walk with Sophie.
I can’t see where this road will lead, what pitfalls we will encounter, how long the road is, where there might be hills or valleys. But I know my Father is leading me. His word is a light unto my path, and I will choose to walk in obedience. I can’t think about “down the road,” but I can be ok with where we are today. Down the road is too much. But today, I can handle in his grace. And I know that when we get to “down the road” he’ll be there too, with grace for that day as well. So for today, in obedience, I will choose thankfulness.